Billie Lourd says she understands mom Carrie Fisher better now that she's a parent: 'I used to get mad at my mom for not wearing a bra'
Billie Lourd understands her late mother Carrie Fisher more and more everyday.
The Scream Queens alum, who welcomed her first child with husband Austen Rydell in 2021, spoke with People on Wednesday about how she used to criticize her mom for the very thing she’s now doing.
“I used to get mad at my mom for not wearing a bra,” she recalled of Fisher, who died in 2016 of a heart attack. “And now I sometimes don't have the energy to put on a bra.”
Lourd, who said it’s “exhausting being a mom,” added, “I'm thinking about my old self yelling at my mom about that and I'm like, 'Man, she was probably just tired and didn't feel like putting on a bra! Why was I hating on her for it!?'"
She joked, "Sometimes you can't even put on a sock. I go full robe most days. The fact that I have a dress on right now is a rarity."
The American Horror Story star has found ways to incorporate her late mom into her life in any way she can. In March, she spoke to Vogue about how Fisher inspired her wedding attire.
??"My dad was walking around town shopping and came upon the store and found the perfect shoe," Lourd shared. "They reminded him of the shoes my mom used to wear in the ’90s. But he had the same experience I had with my rehearsal-dinner dress. It was a month before the wedding, and they told him they take four months to make the shoes. He talked to Mohamad, the manager of the store, and told him when the wedding was and asked him if he could somehow rush them, and he magically made it happen! When he came to pick up the shoes, it turned out my dad’s hunch about my mom was right. Mohamad told him that my mom used to shop at their store in New York City in the ’90s. The perfect shoe turned out to literally be the perfect shoe. It was serendipity!"
In December 2021, Lourd posted a photo of her and the Star Wars icon, along with a message about enduring grief.
“People always ask me what stage of grief I’m in. And my answer is never simple,” Lourd began the post. “I’m in a different stage of grief in each moment of every day. My grief is a multi-course meal with many complicated ingredients. An amuse bouche of bargaining followed by an anger appetizer with a side of depression, acceptance for the entree and of course a little denial for dessert. And that’s how grief should be — all things all at once — actually there is no ‘should’ in grief — grief just is whatever it is for you and that is how it ‘should be.’”
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