Michaela JaƩ Rodriguez says being vulnerable is like 'peeling an onion': 'You gain a bit of strength every single time'

'Pose' alum Michaela JaƩ Rodriguez says being unafraid to be vulnerable has been her saving grace in pretty much everything in life. (Photo: Getty; designed by Quinn Lemmers)
Pose alum Michaela JaƩ Rodriguez says being unafraid to be vulnerable has been her saving grace in pretty much every aspect of life. (Photo: Getty; designed by Quinn Lemmers)

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Michaela JaĆ© Rodriguez is a force to be reckoned with ā€” especially since her groundbreaking role as Blanca Evangelista in the FX drama Pose made her the first trans actress in history to be nominated for lead actress in a drama series.

Now that she has a string of critically acclaimed works under her belt ā€” including tick, tickā€¦ BOOM! and the Apple TV series Loot ā€” Rodriguez, 31, who for years went by "MJ" before switching to her full name, admits that being one of the most visible trans Latinas on television is a huge responsibility.

ā€œI can now say: yes,ā€ she says of whether or not she feels the pressure that comes with her platform. ā€œI remember at the beginning [when I was first doing press interviews], I would say no, because I was so new at all this. I didn't have a chance to really dial down and actually center myself.

ā€œBut now,ā€ she continues, ā€œknowing what [being a role model] comes with, it actually makes me stronger. It keeps me kind of on my toes.ā€

Staying grounded, she adds, is a daily intention at this stage in her life. She maps out her self-care routine with 20-minutes of meditation every day to try and ā€œdecompressā€ from the hustle and bustle of Los Angeles, where she recently moved.

Though itā€™s taken time to find a mindfulness practice she can commit to, she confesses to always having had ā€œa strong sense of selfā€ and purpose for her life, which she credits to her Puerto Rican upbringing. Being Afro-Latina and a transgender woman, she explains, are strengths and gifts she cherishes wholeheartedly.

ā€œI like the presence I take up in spaces where people have never seen me before,ā€ she says. ā€œThey ask me these questions and I get to tell them about the intersectionalities. Thatā€™s my joy, that's my heritage. Itā€™s uplifting for myself when I can speak about my culture and give a full explanation of where I've come from, and how I've grown in that culture. That's how I show love to myself. Because that's how I spend awareness.ā€

Identity has always been important to Rodrigeuz, and is a major focus in the projects she chooses ā€” including her latest partnership with Citiā€™s chosen name feature, allowing credit card and debit customers to update their banking cards with their chosen first name without a legal name change.

ā€œWhen it comes to anyone's name, it is so personal to them,ā€ she says. ā€œI think for [queer] youth, when they have something allotted to them like this, it will give them that courage to just be like, 'I can keep going forward. I can live my life.'ā€

As she gets older, the actress is also finding strength in wearing her heart on her sleeve.

In September, she experienced what she calls the ā€œultimate test in vulnerabilityā€ when she posed in her underwear for Calvin Kleinā€™s newest campaign. Though it was a daunting experience, it wound up being a strengthening one, too.

ā€œI never thought in a million years that I would be on camera [in my underwear], but I let it happen,ā€ she explains of the shoot. ā€œIt happened. I looked at it and I realized, this is beautiful. I'm beautiful. And I should always see myself this way when I'm looking at myself, if it's a reflection, on a screen, or if I'm looking at myself in the mirror. So that was one of the biggest moments for me, regarding vulnerability. I think I've made a huge step ā€¦ It was great.ā€

On the practice of vulnerability, Rodriguez says ā€œitā€™s like peeling an onion.ā€

ā€œI've had a lot of layers,ā€ she says, ā€œand sometimes when those layers get pulled back, you gain a bit of strength, every single time. I think that's how I was able to step into my confidence and be more communicative about how I feel.ā€

Itā€™s safe to say we havenā€™t seen the last of Rodriguez, who is embracing her success with gratitude and a clear mind.

ā€œMy philosophy on life is we only get one ā€” so live it,ā€ she says.

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